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story Sister brings meals, kind words to homeless friends in the
Bronx
By DICK RYAN
Special to the National Catholic Reporter Bronx, N.Y.
The blue van slowed down as it turned into one of the more
desolate corners of the Bronx, a remote loading dock at the Bronx Terminal
Market where a few empty trailer trucks were parked. A woman got out of the van
and walked toward a huge abandoned warehouse with large, gouged-out holes where
there were once doors and windows. Inside, there was nothing now but a
cavernous darkness. In the middle of a cold, wintry day, in the basement of the
Bronx, its floor was a grimy expanse of rubble, dirt, garbage and worse.
"Annie, are you in there? Are you all right?" the woman called out
in the darkness a couple of times before another woman's voice answered faintly
from the opposite end of the abandoned cave.
"Over here, Sister, I'm over here."
When Sr. Lauria Fitzgerald had worked her way across the debris
and filth, she and Annie embraced, the two of them surrounded by the cluttered
piles of bags and makeshift bedding that were all of Annie's possessions in the
world. Inside Annie, a tiny life waited to be born in a few months -- her 13th
child.
As on almost every other day in the week, Fitzgerald had come to
visit some of the countless homeless men and women in the Bronx. They are a
large part of her days, and they include prostitutes, addicts, alcoholics and
others who remain invisible to people in other parts of the city.
Fitzgerald and Annie talked for a few minutes about the pregnancy
and about a visit to the clinic later in the week. Fitzgerald then asked if
anyone else was around, and Annie pointed to another patch of darkness about 20
feet away.
Fitzgerald found her way over to a tall black man bent over on a
cane and obviously in pain. Three nights earlier, someone had stabbed Ray in
the thigh. Ray lay in the street until Fitzgerald came and helped him into the
back of her van and then helped him find his way back into the warehouse. He
refused to go to the hospital, and he hadn't yet seen a doctor. So Fitzgerald,
fearful of gangrene setting in, made him promise he would go with her to the
doctor when she returned in about an hour. Ray nodded and fell back on his
mattress of rubble.
Besides the knives, there were other dangers, other hungers. They
come and go and come again out of nowhere, day and night.
Just another day
It was just the beginning of another day for Fitzgerald, a short,
puckish, electric Dominican Sister of Blauvelt who, for the last seven years,
has been driving around the poorest Congressional district in the country, one
overridden with AIDS, while searching out the homeless that she feeds and tries
to help in any way she can.
On this day, her '90 Plymouth van was loaded with rolls, cheese,
soda and muffins when she left the Highbridge Community Life Center and began
her daily routine, which usually ends late at night. The two back seats in the
van had been removed so she could squeeze in more food.
"I think I bring food to an average of about 50 people a day,
mostly at night, along with a volunteer. And I sometimes don't get home until
two in the morning. The Life Center, of which I am part, gives me about $150 a
week to buy food, but that can get spread pretty thin. I used to get leftover
food from the Bronx House of Detention, but that stopped a while ago. It was a
big help while it lasted. As far as getting the food now, it's a little bit
here, a little bit there."
Fitzgerald was born in the Bronx. Her mother was a nurse and her
father was an undercover narcotics detective in the same section of the Bronx
where she now spends her days and nights searching out the uncharted numbers of
homeless who are buried in the shadows of bridges, hidden under cardboard
blankets, sleeping in cars or trucks or abandoned buildings. The longer she
searches, the more she finds, going places where few dare venture.
"For five days a week, I take some of them to clinics or
hospitals, drive them to visit relatives, go to court with them or visit them
in Riker's Island if they've been arrested. Then, on three of those five
nights, I try to find as many of them as I can and bring them something to
eat."
The van turned another corner, and Fitzgerald drove alongside a
building that had recently been gutted by fire and whose windows and doors were
now sealed up with concrete to keep out the homeless.
The van slowed to a stop as Fitzgerald jumped out and walked over
to a small, uneven space in the concrete that had been broken through, offering
just enough entrance for some of the homeless that found shelter there. She got
down on her knees and yelled inside, but there was no answer. She would come
back again later.
'She's just like us'
As she drove, she laughed and pointed to the dashboard and the
small tray of costume jewelry given to her by several homeless prostitutes who
live near the water and line up along River Avenue at night. "They get offended
if I don't wear the rings and bracelets they give me, so I wear it when I go to
see them and bring them food. A few weeks ago, a few of them met our pastor
from Sacred Heart Church as he walked toward the rectory. 'Do you know
Fitzgerald?' one of them asked him. 'Well, she's our friend. She's just like
one of us.' He enjoys telling the story, I guess.
"Humor is very important for everyone who is out here. One day,
Caroline, a homeless transvestite, called me very excitedly from across the
street and came running over to show me a new dress. He was so excited he gave
me a big hug, but suddenly the containers holding the water in his 'breasts'
broke and went all over us. Everyone there with us broke up laughing."
A religious for nine years, Fitzgerald worked among the poor in
Appalachia for seven years as a Glenmary volunteer. "I love being with people,
seeing where they're at, them accepting me and me accepting them. I've never
met such faithful people or people with as much courage as here among the
homeless.
"And as a community on the street, I sometimes feel they have a
better community life than some religious communities because they really care
about each other."
She stopped the van again and pointed to another empty lot filled
with gravel and rocks and covered over at one corner with makeshift walls of
cardboard and old wood. "People live there, but I don't think anyone's there
now. It reminds me of an African village built on the side of the hill. And
they keep building more and more on top of it."
There was a deserted trailer truck along the way where another man
was living, but he wasn't "home" at the moment. So Fitzgerald filled a plastic
bag with a sandwich, a muffin and a bottle of soda and left it inside the truck
for him.
A few blocks away, she stopped the van again when she spotted
Dennis and Terence. Dennis had lost a few toes to frostbite during the winter a
year ago. He began chatting with Fitzgerald while she put several slices of
cheese on a sandwich and gave him an extra muffin for later. She also talked
with Terence about going with him for his Medicare card during the week. "They
live on the street so they don't have an address, so they use my address for
all their mail, whether it's health cards or social service things or letters
from their family."
Back in the van, she showed off the St. Patrick's Day card she had
received from Katie, who also enclosed a few photos of a beautiful young woman
and her mother. "Katie was homeless for a year and a half and lived over there
in that abandoned building just behind Yankee Stadium.
"She and one of the homeless men got married when she was here,
and I helped them get an apartment, but the marriage didn't work out. But now,
she's living happily in California, has two jobs, attends AA and has been clean
for 18 months. She stays in touch, but I miss seeing her every day with that
big smile of hers."
In addition to Katie's card and occasional notes from others,
Fitzgerald also has several small wooden crosses that some of the men have
carved and given her. "I have them all," she said, "and I will keep them
always. I also have a Bible that one of the men carved out of a bar of soap
while he was in jail at Riker's Island. He even carved in a passage."
Yankee Stadium is something of a red flag for Fitzgerald and
anyone else associated with the Highbridge Community Life Center, including
people like Jim Sugrue, a volunteer helper. He was outraged at reports that
Yankee owner George Steinbrenner wants to build a new stadium with what Sugrue
said is little regard for the poor in the area.
"And it's ironic that some of the same taxpayers who are always
complaining about the poor and the high cost of welfare are going to end up
paying the tab for whatever Steinbrenner wants. The whole thing's a disgrace.
All those people and all that money inside the stadium. And people going hungry
right outside."
Too busy to fret
But Lauria Fitzgerald was too busy searching out the homeless to
fret about George Steinbrenner.
"Occasionally, a couple of the men will get into a fight on the
street, but I'll keep out of it. When the women fight, I try to break it up.
But a few times, one of them pulled a knife on the other, so I backed off. But
they are all very protective of me. If someone curses while I'm around, the
rest of them will get after him or her. And if, for some reason, I don't show
up for a few days, they worry that somebody hurt me.
"A woman once asked me why I don't pray more with them, but I do
pray. Before the two pig roasts I have every year, I say a prayer. And each
night, with each prostitute, I say, 'God keep you safe tonight.' And they will
say 'God bless you, and pray for me, Sister.' Do these women ever feel that I'm
judging them? I hope not.
"The worst times of the year are the winter, naturally, and then
summertime," she continued. "That's when all the young gangs are out on the
street, and they can be very violent and cruel to the homeless. Annie was
beaten severely in the park two years ago, and one of her eyes still doesn't
open. There are a lot of homeless Vietnam vets, and I feel so badly about them.
They fought so hard and gave so much for their country, and here they are out
on the street."
Sugrue later said that among the homeless men and women Fitzgerald
sees every day is a man called Carlos, a Vietnam veteran from Puerto Rico.
"I've seen him with tears in his eyes after Sister Lauria has come and spent
some time talking to him. The fact that someone actually cares about him and
what happens to him touches him very deeply every time she comes. For most of
them, the feeling is there that they are totally alone and forgotten. And then
someone like Sister Lauria comes along, and she obviously cares very much about
Carlos and how he is. We can't even imagine what that means to him."
Fitzgerald pulled the car over to the curb because she and Willie
had spotted each other. She had been looking for him. Over the weekend, she
promised Willie she would drive him to Ossining in upstate New York so he could
visit his 85-year-old father. Annie wanted to go along with them, so the
itinerary had to be settled.
Fitzgerald made Willie a sandwich while they talked. Dressed in
black slacks and purple sweater with a tiny silver cross around her neck, she
was as ordinary as any other woman driving around the Bronx, meeting with old
friends. There was a loud, cheerful hello for everyone she met, and all were
glad to see her and take a bag of food. The only time she didn't smile was when
children were mentioned.
No street children
"As you can see," she told a visitor, "there are no homeless
children on these streets. I won't tolerate that. There's no reason for a child
to be homeless. There are plenty of foster homes, and social services has many
shelters and other programs. There's no reason for anything else. And if I see
a child, I report it without waiting a second."
Once in a while, Fitzgerald will share a meal in the back of an
abandoned truck with some of the homeless. She used to carry a few cigars for
special occasions, and she mentioned that some who are fighting drug problems
crave sweets.
"I don't have an office and my convent is Siena House, a shelter
for homeless pregnant and nursing women. But there are no conditions set down
on what I do. My mother says she is very proud of me. But I also know that she
says the rosary for me every day."
Meanwhile, back at Highbridge Community Life Center, Br. Ed
Phelan, a La Salle Christian Brother and the executive director of the center
and its many services, talked about many of the same impulses as
Fitzgerald.
"We serve over 10,000 people in this area of the southwest Bronx,"
he began, "and our job is simply to move people to self-sufficiency in any way
that's humanly possible. We have adult ed, youth education, an after-school
center for kids, homeless families in apartments, people on public assistance
looking for jobs, HIV prevention and education, and several other community
services.
"We also have one of the richest employers in the country with
multimillion-dollar employees only a few blocks away at Yankee Stadium, and the
owner has played no role whatsoever in trying to help neighbors who are
homeless and hungry right under the shadow of his stadium.
"But we try to help our people think creatively about the problems
we face. We have a great group of young college-age staff and volunteers, and
they are part of the future," he said.
"The traditional ways of doing things and cursing the darkness
don't change anything. We have to look at things in a different way than in the
past. Hope is the only thing that you have left when you have no hope."
And for a pregnant woman sitting alone in the darkness of an
abandoned warehouse or a man missing a few toes and standing in the middle of
the street or a young prostitute putting aside a favorite ring for a friend,
there is a cheese sandwich and a summer pig roast and the familiar sight of a
blue Plymouth van moving through the streets. And hope.
And, always, Fitzgerald. With no sermons to preach or conversions
to make or any snappy slogans for anything that she does. Just all that food in
the back of the van, the directions to Willie's father in Ossining and a small
tray of fake jewelry and hand-carved wooden crosses that are among her greatest
treasures in the world.
"I feel bad about Annie being pregnant again and I take some
responsibility for it even though it's not mine," Fitzgerald said a little
wistfully as she finally parked the van outside the center. "I should have
taken her by the hand and made sure her tubes were tied.
"But I feel good about two couples who are getting married and
that I was able to help find rooms in a hotel. Like everything else, it's one
step at a time."
And so it is with Fitzgerald, her boundless energy, her loaves and
fishes for the multitude and her pixy smile crackling across the Bronx, every
step of the way.
National Catholic Reporter, April 25,
1997
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