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Starting
Point Carving signs for the future to say we, too, were
here
By HARRY W. PAIGE
Somewhere -- I wont say
exactly where -- there is a tree with the family name carved into it. A boy did
the carving, but the man who took his place approves, returning yearly to set
the name even deeper into the living tissue of an oak.
His annual journey is a sort of pilgrimage to memory. Most of
those who bore the name are gone now, including the boy who made the first
carving. But somehow, young as he was, he must have sensed a need for his
reminder to futurity -- that we, too, had been here.
The boy did not carve his own initials; he carved the family name,
an act that transcended the self. And he did not chisel the name in rock or
scratch it in wet cement. He seemed to sense that his artwork, like life
itself, was of the fugitive kind, fleeting and impermanent. Yet he tried with a
boys jackknife and a summoned loyalty to help those he loved live a
little longer. And that is still his mission.
During historys greatest war, many years after the
boys inspired carving, the man came across a sign in a remote corner of a
desert, a sign that said Kilroy was here! And from that day on,
Kilroy, the G.I. Odysseus, became someone in whom he could believe -- a carver
of signs, a stalker of continents, a writer of words.
We all want to mark our passing through this, our world, our home.
We want to leave our name or our footprints, our fame or our saintliness --
anything to show that we, too, have been here. The note in the bottle; the
signals sent out into space; the neon bleeding of our name and the courting of
history itself ... What are they all but extensions of a boys
name-carving in a tree? We have been here. And we want you to know and
remember.
The cemetery marker is rust-colored marble and it, too, bears the
family name. Beneath it are the individual names of those who have gone on
ahead. Yet the impulse that caused the stone to be erected is but an echo of a
boys tree-carving.
The young name-carver obeyed a human urge -- to preserve, not to
have it all lost in the swirling mass of time and the bitter brevity of our
days. The identifying scratching of symbols that he cut in a tree stood for the
measure of his days, the stuff of his dreams and memories and the object of his
loves. No matter that his engraving would survive him by perhaps a century or
two, if he was lucky. It was still a beau geste, grand gesture. It was
his protest as well as a celebration of his being, his belonging and yearning
to be remembered.
The places of primitive man are full of such drawings and
carvings: His magic and religion appear on the walls of caves and in the graves
of his ancestors. His record of blood truths and his struggle for survival are
there to see when the rest is written on the wind.
The boy, too, marked the territorial boundaries with his carving.
A living oak bears our family name, he seemed to be saying with each letter.
Let all who see, stop and pay attention. Let them remember! Let them remember
that there was such a family as ours!
Almost a lifetime after the boys carving, his mother, then
in her 100th year, would say to him, Yes, I do remember now there was
such a person as I. Even through the thickening fog of her dementia and
her leaving, she recognized the person she had been and gave to her the dignity
of recognition -- as she might have recognized an old acquaintance whose name
she had forgotten. And the man at this moment would write her name among the
stars or spell it in flowers. For she was someone as special as life itself.
And no one deserves to be covered by the cold snows of oblivion. We all deserve
to be remembered, if not individually, then collectively, as humankind.
We, too, were here.
The carvers among us are not only boys with jackknives; they are
men and women who want just as desperately to leave something behind. To say it
with Gothic cathedrals, hanging gardens and steel fingers that claw the sky.
We, too, were here! To say it with stories, myths and legends. To say it with
the symphonic swell of sound. To say it with the humble things -- the baking of
bread and the mending of clothes. The love of one another. The tending and
caregiving and the patient waiting! And even perhaps the courage to have a
child who also may grow to be a carver of trees.
Harry Paige writes from Potsdam, N.Y.
National Catholic Reporter, November 13,
1998
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