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POETRY
These poems by Anna Wilson are selections from Sleeper Awake,
an unpublished manuscript. Wilson, at different periods in her life, served as
a soup kitchen worker, an accountant at John Leary House, a Catholic worker
community in Boston, and was a wife, the mother of two, and a student in Purdue
Universitys writing program. She died in 1995 after an acute asthma
attack at age 36. Her husband, John Wilson of Battleground, Ind., who submitted
her work, writes: Anna infused me with inspiration through her spirit,
and faithfulness, bringing a healing grace to our lives, marriage and children.
I miss her very much, but feel that I can share the beauty of her voice with
others. It helps with the grief, sorrow and anger I sometimes feel toward God.
If I feel far away from God, I simply need only read from Annas poetry,
and I know that He holds me in the palm of his hand.
Ash Wednesday
Today is the end of ordinary time; within the cavern
of the church, the vault fills like a pool, swallowing our small
sounds -- the scuff of feet, a sigh, a stifled cough. As I look across
the dark water, your faces rise to me like water lilies, long stems
tangling into a shifting column, dwindling into the cold black
depth.
For the dim expanse of an hour, I sign you each into
death, bruising your creamy petals gray, smearing the grainy ash in
two quick strokes. Fifty times my hand is blow, benediction.
Each
time my fingers drop from your heads, my mouth burns with the words of
the prophet; they light my tongue and set me to flame here in this bank
of fire and light surrounding the Word, the table at the lip of
darkness, while still your faces, lilies, bob before me and rise from the
moving water. I feel I must stand here forever branded weeping with
power burning fingers blackening with palms ash
burning probing the stony pit of resurrection burning until the black
water is still
As For You
Inspired by Ariel Dorfmans, The Last Song of
Manuel Sendero
As for you, Mr. Dorfman, isnt it enough I
carry a Salvadoran cross between my breasts as if to keep one pair of
hands safe one heart close. I read your book on the train to
work fighting the sour knot of tears in my throat, the corners of my
mouth twitching, ashamed of my shame to weep. Now making the
beds, through the childrens squabbling and laughter, seasoning
the soup, I hear their voices
the father taken after the Sunday
picnic
the mother in her apron, the kettle left boiling
the
children playing Mummy & Daddy
What do you say when they take me
away? What do you do when they take you too? And if they come for the
children?
Who are your people, Mr. Dorfman, that they can
forget their own mothers fathers brothers sisters sweet baby
flesh
and as for mine another military aide package U.S. interests
abroad in the interest of national security the fight against
communism my husband on the phone to an aide in an office in
Washington pleading, raging. The bill is approved.
Mr.
Dorfman, who is listening?
Mother
Hands wrinkled from dishwater clutch the list --
W.I.C., Stamps, bank, Childrens Hospital, training pants,
groceries. Shoulders shrug with impatience over a stride that wont
lengthen, shrug against a gray cold. The park is empty and the
beginning rain drives her under the trees.
Here in this place the
leaves close about her, locking her within their impossible
green. Leaves press on her eyelids, cool green coins, cling to her
skin, a sodden shroud. Mist drifts off the pool, coils about dank
trunks, sucks at her breath. Her feet move across the brick and yet
there is no drawing to an end of this green, this gray, this
black. There is water at her feet and so she moves between branch and
trunk, trunk and branch. There is little enough reflection of her body.
There is little enough of time and place. Too little of the list is
accomplished but the laundry smells sweet, and dinner bakes
solidly in the ovens womb, the child runs in with leaf green at
the back of his eyes; his kiss tastes of mist. There is a moment, then,
folding the clothes, when the man comes to her with the rain wet on the
hairs of his hands, encircles her from behind, and there is something of
black bark and branch in his touch.
Big Wheels
Weve been sleeping, the kids and I together
in the big bed as if our sprawl could fill your absence, Later,
driving, I search out each orange semi, checking the left forearm
cocked on the windowframe for the silver glint of your wedding
band, the familiar plane of your watch (Navy PX), each
configuration of dark hair and moles, twisted rope of tendon,
tissue. I am jealous of the early morning roil of fog heavy across
breathless fields, each sip of coffee and bite of boysenberry pie,
the tight curl of sleep inside your bunk. I am caustic with
love.
Egg Dyeing
The vinegar stung where Id bitten my nails close
to the quick and I cradled the egg softly in a clean paper towel to
dry its shell and my pain. Beeswax and paraffin smokes over the candle
stub -- votive from Safeway -- and wrinkles my nose with its
goodness. The wax goes on easily; sometimes I singe my
fingertips flicking my hand over the flame. White on white drowns in
green and I walk away to wash dishes and play two Chopin nocturnes.
In an hour the egg and the evening are dark and I light the candle
again. The color is uneven, changing greens to blues, but I dont
care, touching its darkness and depth with the light of the candle
caged in the curve of my palm. The wax runs easily, dims the edge of my
finger again to the gray of a dead birds wingtip. I wish I could
hold out this egg, mine now become yours, in the hollow of my hand so
you could take it and see beyond its color the afterglow of my
palm.
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National Catholic Reporter, April 21,
2000
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