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Books Mother: The cross of being seen as gods
SNAPSHOTS: 20TH
CENTURY MOTHER-DAUGHTER FICTION Edited by Joyce Carol Oates and Janet
Berliner David R. Godine, 240 pages, $16.95
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REVIEWED By BARBARA
BARTOCCI
God looked a lot like my mother. That was the first line in an
essay I wrote several years ago. And in the stories collected by Joyce Carol
Oates and Janet Berliner in Snapshots: 20th Century Mother-Daughter
Fiction, the reader is thrust, again and again, into an awareness of this
inevitable comparison. How easily are mothers perceived as gods by their
daughters -- sometimes malevolent gods, occasionally compassionate, but always,
somehow, larger than life.
I recall my daughters face at 16 when she flung these words
at me: I am not like you, Mom! Dont expect me to be! I
responded, and meant every word, I dont want you to be like me. Be
yourself. But at 16, could she believe me? Why should she, when so many
mothers place expectation on their daughters to become, if not like themselves,
then like them -- only better?
I saw such expectations in my own mother, and saw her attempts to
control what she saw slipping away -- the part of me who was like her. The more
I grew into myself with my own values and goals, the more repudiated she felt.
In the 17 stories in Snapshots, women writers give voice to
the influence mothers and daughters have on each other. Eleven-year-old Elena,
in Isabel Allendes Wicked Girl, encounters her own emerging
sexuality reflected in her mothers desire. In contrast, it is the mother,
Consuelo, in Julia Alvarezs Consuelos Letter, who
catches a glimmer, as if in a dream, of a freedom of choice embraced by her
daughter that she, the mother, has never dared claim. In Margaret Atwoods
Significant Moments in the Life of My Mother, I saw poignant
reminders of my own mother when I read, It is part of my mothers
mythology that I am as cheerful and productive as she is.
Yet as I read these stories, I wondered, also, are there any happy
mother-daughter relationships? Mary Gordon and Joyce Carol Oates both write of
mentally ill mothers who inflict long-lasting pain on their daughters. Martha
Soukup, in her haunting, Up Above a Diamond City, lets a little
girl describe in innocent words the terror of living with an abusive mother --
a woman referred to only as she. Even in the oddly quirky story,
How to Talk to Your Mother (Notes) by Lorrie Moore, there is
heartbreak.
As Oates says in the books introduction, religions
like Hinduism honor the paradox of the amoral mother (Nature) who both nurtures
and destroys
the malevolent figure of the mother who tells us the worst
things about ourselves and urges us to defeat, not triumph; I [wanted to
write], not a parable of defeat, but one of difficult victory.
It is that difficult victory that women -- indeed, all human
beings -- are called to achieve: the spiritual and psychological victory of
becoming our selves, whole and unique. At their core, as various as they are,
these stories illustrate that struggle.
With joy, I look at my daughter, 20 years younger than I. She was
9 when her father died in a fiery plane crash during the Vietnam War. Like the
widowed mother in Bette Greenes An Ordinary Woman, I seemed,
on the surface, to take hold of my changed circumstances, yet, like the
character in Greenes story, my secret was: Im not strong, and
I honestly dont know what to do.
Yet in becoming aware of our own weaknesses lie the seeds of
change and growth. When I wrote the essay about my mother, I concluded, I
no longer saw God in the face of my mother. I saw, simply, my mother. A human
being, who was not so large as I had imagined nor so strong nor so powerful nor
so wise. In a flash of insight, I understood what it is that all parents must
bear: the cross of their children perceiving them as gods.
In Snapshots, writers address, through fiction, this very
issue. When, at 16, my daughter proclaimed her freedom from being like me, I
rejoiced. I wanted her to transcend the expectations I felt my mother had
placed on me. Im not God, but I thank God that my daughter and I are able
to see each other as separate human beings.
Barbara Bartocci, a magazine journalist and the author of four
books, stayed with her mother during her mothers terminal illness. Out of
that experience came her latest book, Nobodys Child Any More
(Sorin Books)
National Catholic Reporter, May 11,
2001
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