September
11 A Year Later In midst of grief, anxiety, testimony to grace still pours from
ground zero
By PATRICIA LEFEVERE
New York
Nearly a year after the World Trade
Center towers collapsed, the aftershocks of the terrorist attacks are still
being felt in the hearts and psyches of millions of New Yorkers and others
affected around the nation. The evidence of evil, of death and destruction, the
loss of loved ones and livelihoods and the foreclosure of futures have become
an acute scar on the face of the city.
Yet amid the tears and anxiety, many who have ministered to the
fallen and those who attempted to rescue them from the burning ash and crushed
steel testify even today to the presence of the Spirit of God and the
outpouring of grace emanating from ground zero.
Joe Bradley, an operating engineer who spent 12 hours a day, seven
days a week at the site from Sept. 16 until May 28, doesnt understand how
he survived. I cant explain it, he told NCR.
This was such a cruel evil. It was such a harrowing scene. Yet we were
well protected by those souls down there and by the Almighty.
So many depended on the 5,000 construction workers and the
thousands of firemen, police and rescue workers to find their loved ones, or at
least their remains. The most expensive workers in the world cleared the
site in half the time, at half the cost and lost nobody in the recovery
efforts, Bradley said, just a few broken bones and injuries
The Spirit of God was upon us always.
Bradleys colleagues dubbed him the General. At
57, with more than three decades in construction work, he was one of the senior
engineers at the scene. At age 22 he had been part of the crew that erected the
towers.
Back then he was able to talk via ham radio to his brother, who
was serving in Vietnam. I told him how lucky I felt working on the two
tallest buildings in the world at that time. Bradleys brother, a
retired Army colonel, helped him adjust to the horrors that befell the towers
35 years later.
He told me to put a drop of wintergreen into my respirator.
It masks the smell of death, Bradley said.
Did it?
A little, Bradley said.
From a coffee cup
What did help Bradley and his mates were the chaplains. He
described a sidewalk ministry of men and women of all faiths. Whatever
you needed, whenever you needed them, they were there for us. Bradley
said he was moved by the visit of Bishop William Murphy of Rockville Centre in
Long Island. He came when the pile was still burning, introduced himself
as Father Murphy, gave general absolution as he came in and passed
out Communion from a coffee cup.
Bradley lauded the work of Franciscan Fr. Brian Jordan, chaplain
to the iron and steel workers at the site. There are no atheists in
foxholes or at ground zero, Jordan told NCR. Here we saw
evil at its worst and goodness at its best.
Jordan acknowledged that ecumenism and interfaith relations
improved big time at the site. All these reservations we have
about each other just disappeared. We found our unity here.
Many of the rescuers helped their spiritual recovery by taking
advantage of two Alcoholics Anonymous meetings held at either end of the
destruction site.
A few blocks away at Our Lady of Victory Parish, some 20 to 25
Wall Street workers still attend a weekly lunchtime meeting on how to cope with
posttraumatic stress. People were trembling when they began coming
to church shortly after the attack, said associate pastor Fr. George Baker. He
described the state of warfare outside the church where National
Guard troops paced and bus and subway lines were rerouted on Sept. 11.
People in other parts of the country consider New Yorkers
tough guys, Baker said. But for nine hours -- from the first attack
at 8:46 a.m. on Sept. 11 to the fall of the last building at the World Trade
Center at 5:20 p.m. -- New Yorkers were under attack. There was a crater
in the earth when it was over, he said.
Confession lines continue to stretch at the commuter parish. And
Baker is spending more time with penitents who have deepened their
reflections on their lives.
Along with the visible fear caused by the Sept. 11 attacks, Baker
saw repeated acts of compassion -- lending cell phones to strangers, giving
bottles of water and napkins to soothe burning eyes.
Although church attendance has fallen from its record numbers in
the first six weeks after the attacks, he noted that now when people share the
kiss of peace, there seems to be a deeper warmth generated. Since 9/11
people know that the persons next to them carry their own world of sorrow,
too, he said.
Five blocks south of ground zero at Our Lady of the Rosary Parish,
Fr. Pete Meehan contrasted the thousands fleeing the day of the disaster -- who
stopped by the church on the way out of Lower Manhattan -- with the scarcity of
worshipers today. For hours the pastor and others at the church handed out
paper towels and lent their telephones to the escapees. Then the area became a
ghost town, subject to evacuation. Since the priests had a supply
of food and nowhere to go, they stayed. Since then, Mass attendance has fallen
by 20 percent, Meehan said, a measure of fewer commuters and tourists.
Meehan believes that New Yorkers -- and perhaps all Americans --
will come to view 9/11 as a formative event just as the Depression
was a benchmark in his parents lives. They will carry it with them
forever.
People discovered what was important to them -- their families --
and then found that nothing was important, he said. It jangles nerves to
know a job doesnt matter. I could get blown up tomorrow. You cant
go in and sprinkle holy water on that, Meehan said.
Biggest parish in New York
When Jesuit Fr. Jim Martin volunteered to help at ground zero, he
thought that the work he had done in soup kitchens, hospitals and prisons might
help him, but I had no training in trauma, he told NCR. Yet
what he experienced time after time during his six weeks as a chaplain was that
the works of the Holy Spirit were pulling people together. Never
had he seen so much charity, concord and unity, he said.
Martin carried liturgical vessels to the site on Sunday, Sept. 16,
prepared to say Mass amid the cinders. Looking out on the sea of firefighters,
policemen, rescuers, medics and steelworkers, I thought it was the
biggest parish in New York that day.
The Jesuit said he was overcome by the faith of the dozens of
firefighters who knelt for Communion in piles of ash. Only two days before he
had seen firemen lie atop the rubble and let search dogs discover
them. The canine corps had grown depressed and anxious, their handlers said,
because there were no live victims for them to find.
Martin, 41, who describes his experiences in his memoir,
Searching for God at Ground Zero, was familiar with spray-painted signs
at the site, announcing: danger, morgue, triage
station, but he confessed utter surprise by the poster workmen spray
painted and set before the makeshift altar. It read: The body of
Christ.
Being with the guys at ground zero created a
heightened awareness for Martin, much like a retreat does, he said.
Seeing firemen eating with electricians, policemen with truck drivers at the
rescue workers dining hall aboard the Spirit cruise ship
showed me this is the kingdom of God.
Like many New Yorkers, Martin experienced survivor
guilt when hed take a day or two off to decompress or catch up with
work at America magazine, where he is an associate editor.
A year later, Fr. Kevin Madigan describes feelings of lethargy
that still visit him and make it hard to get going some days. Some
nights he dreams he is trapped inside a burning building.
But Madigan wasnt in the towers when they were hit. He was
hearing confessions across the street in St. Peters Church. The church is
the oldest Catholic parish in New York, its former wooden structure the place
where St. Elizabeth Ann Seton was received into the Catholic church in 1805.
Madigan, its pastor, stood in front of the Church Street subway station,
indicating the place where he had seen the South tower collapse.
He called the attacks a personal wake up call.
Certain things fall about, but other things are coming together, he said.
When the symbols of our security collapsed, many discovered that real security
is in our human relations, he said. As Madigan walks the neighborhood, its
sidewalks decorated with shrines and memorabilia, he said he cant point
to a single sign of people wanting to bomb the terrorists. Instead some 40
families of victims have united. Calling themselves Peaceful
Tomorrows, they are dedicated to promoting effective nonviolent responses
to terrorism.
Inside St. Peters he indicates where columns of supplies for
the rescuers once stood. In the far northwest corner of the upper church, part
of the engine of one of the hijacked planes dug a small hole in the church
roof.
The damage was meager compared to what befell St. Francis de Sales
Parish in Belle Harbor. The church buried 12 victims of 9/11 by Nov. 9. Six
were firefighters. On Nov. 12 an American Airlines jet crashed a block from the
church.
Find your loved ones
I felt the vibration. I felt it in my legs, Msgr.
Martin Geraghty told NCR, clutching his thighs. I stopped Mass and
told everyone to go and find their loved ones and be safe. We all thought it
was terrorists. Besides 260 deaths on board, five people died on the
ground -- all of them parishioners.
Geraghty and his flock have survived because were all
caregivers, he said. They have received help from Catholics, and others,
across the nation. The group Hearts Across America delivered teddy bears to
each of the 800 children in the school. Donations of $170,000 poured in for
victims of 9/11, including $36 from a boy in the South who sold lemonade to aid
the parishs school children.
Another $88,000 arrived to help those affected by the plane crash.
On the Sunday before Thanksgiving, Geraghty introduced John and Stacey Connolly
and their children to the congregation. They had flown from Texas, bringing
$44,000 collected at their parish, St. Vincent de Paul in Houston. John
Connolly told those assembled: This is what it means to be
Catholic, Geraghty said.
Weve had to learn to be receivers, the pastor
said, adding that part of the parishs follow-up ministry is to be a good
caretaker of the funds.
Geraghty said he noticed a bit of a break in the grieving
cycle this summer as parishioners in this Far Rockaway peninsula
community have enjoyed the beach -- just three blocks from the church. He said
he hopes the anniversary will rekindle the communitys strengths.
Belle Harbor clergy participate in an active interfaith conference
among the five-towns-area of Nassau County. Some 600 people are expected to
attend a memorial service in the parish schoolyard Sept. 10. Each clergyperson
attending will be given a lighted candle to bring to his or her own sanctuary
on Sept. 11.
Across New York on that day -- and in much of the nation -- church
bells will ring, prayers will be offered and people will observe four moments
of silence to mark when the two hijacked jets hit and when the towers fell. It
promises to be a tough day for Fr. Tom Iwanowski, pastor of Our Lady of
Czestochowa in Jersey City.
His parish is the closest religious institution to ground zero in
New Jersey. For years he didnt see sun until 1 or 2 p.m. because of the
shadow cast by the towers. He now confronts the gap in the skyline whenever he
walks along the Hudsons shoreline.
For people in this metropolitan area, its in front of
you all the time, he said. In August Iwanowski crossed the river to view
what he had been seeing for months -- the giant absence of the steel goliaths.
I feel I havent faced the whole situation yet.
Iwanowski, like so many in the shadow of the fall, wants to know:
How do you put into words what happened on Sept. 11?
Patricia Lefevere is an NCR special report
writer.
National Catholic Reporter, September 6,
2002
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