Issue Date: January 13, 2006
By GEORGE R. SZEWS
He has a twitch to his eyes that suggests something is wrong, something deeper and more significant than the involuntary movement of his eye muscles. He needs some sort of healing far down inside him.
It wasnt always so. As a child he laughed easily, played pranks on his older siblings, was the darling of his aging parents -- and that delighted him. But something went wrong, not in the immediate and obvious way a child breaks his leg or arm or gets a high fever, but in the slow and hidden way cancer sneaks into ones blood, bones and flesh and waits for years before making a move. It can take forever to recognize that something inside is amiss.
Thats the way it was with him. A cancer of the human soul that lay still as a seed for years and then grew inside him until there was little room for love that wasnt remorse, or hope that wasnt grim determination. Now he lives from day to day and sometimes less than that, giving up for a while and giving in to drink or drugs or deliberate unconsciousness.
His sister, the one he calls, Gods special child, feels the increasing burden of worry that he will never be right again and has asked God more than once what his intentions could have been in regard to her brother. So far the only answer shes gotten is similar to Jobs. Shes seen the crashing of waves and felt the blazing heat of the sun that rises each day. While it seemed to be enough for Job, she believes there must be more of an answer out there and works each day to make the world a better place believing that absolutely everything cant be left to God alone.
Shes almost right. Everything shouldnt be left to God, only those things we cant do for each other. She may never heal her brother, but someone else with her same convictions may.
Fr. George R. Szews is a campus pastor in Eau Claire, Wis.
National Catholic Reporter, January 13, 2006
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