Ministries
Her ministry is the Spirit in song welling up within her
By PATRICIA LEFEVERE
Special Report Writer West Redding, Conn.
She calls her latest CD Borne
by Grace, but after meeting Notre Dame Sr. Kathleen Deignan, hearing her
sing and play the guitar at the Benedictine Grange here, its easy to
conclude that it is Deignan herself who soars with grace. Her skills as a
composer, lyricist and liturgist lift one into the profundity of the profound,
toward the mystery at the heart of the mystery.
Deignans music is steeped and brewed in Celtic lyricism and
Middle Eastern rhythms, flavored with instrumental and vocal harmonies. The
title of the CD collection of contemplative songs is borrowed from Prayer
to the Divine Tutor by second-century theologian, catechist and saint,
Clement of Alexandria.
One of the churchs earliest mystics, Clement was
vividly aware of being borne by grace -- of being birthed and carried, bathed
and swathed in the numinous field of divine energy, Deignan said.
Mystics throughout the centuries have known the experience of
being borne by grace as a vibrant spiritual awakening and growth into
lifes plenitude, she said. Buoyed by grace, worshipers find themselves en
route to their real homeland, inspired to sing in their mother tongue, ecstatic
hymns of praise and thanksgiving, Deignan believes.
These are songs that have welled up within me in response to
the mystery and mercy of such blessing, she said. Deignan has been
singing all her life. As a latchkey kid of working-class Irish immigrants, she
dove into song after school to avoid the social desolation of her
Manhattan neighborhood in the 1950s. To look out the window was to cry, she
recalled.
Deignan knew from age 7 that she wanted to be a nun. She spent
many teenage hours singing in folk festivals and making home visits with the
Dominican Sisters of the Sick Poor. Her high school sisters, the Congregation
of Notre Dame, drew her to visit their Connecticut motherhouse in 1966.
To encounter these women was to encounter the
Magnificat, Deignan said. They were so engaged in the world
and yet so contemplative. Her first visit occurred during Holy Week when
the sisters performed wall-to-wall music in liturgy after liturgy.
Deignan discovered she could be a nun and a teacher and not have to abandon
music. Her mother was less sure. She saved everything of mine for
years, Deignan said, referring to books, clothes and teenage
treasures.
Three decades on, Deignan is still with the Notre Dame sisters and
still a teacher. An associate professor of religious studies at Iona College in
New Rochelle, N.Y., she founded and directs the Iona Spirituality Institute.
She holds a masters in spirituality and a doctorate in historical
theology, both from Fordham. I consider myself a contemplative
theologian, even if Im credentialed as an academic theologian, she
said.
Spirit in song
Thats Monday through Fridays work. But come Sunday
this composer of over 200 songs, recorded on eight albums, makes the hourlong
trip from New Rochelle to the Benedictine Grange here, a one-person monastic
community founded in a plank-floor barn by Fr. John Guiliani, an artist. For 20
years Deignan has worked as music minister and liturgist, invoking song, dance
and ritual prayer to invite the Christian base community of some 200 worshipers
into the mystical life.
She blesses the day in 1968 when she met Giuliani while studying
at Sacred Heart University in Fairfield, Conn. Giuliani is a priest of the
Bridgeport, Conn., diocese with a Benedictine charism she said.
Guiliani and Deignan, along with composer Evelyn Avoglia, are the
ministerial core of the sacred music ensemble Anima Schola, whose
members are singer-guitarists Greta Sibley and Gregory Hauck; vocalists Marian
MaJamy and Maryann McFadden; percussionist Gina Sader-Rubenstein and
recorder-harmonium player Claudia Chapman.
Community members Joanne and Ed Dobransky of Fairfield call
Deignans music the handmaiden of the worship. Sue Smith of
Thomaston, Conn., has made the 102-mile round trip each Sabbath over 13 years
for the nourishment the liturgy provides.
The music embodies like the Eucharist. Kathleen has spoken
the Spirit in song. It gets right down into the body where we live. Its
like a blade opening us, Smith told NCR.
Deignan is uncertain whether her musical abilities are a gift or a
handicap. She can neither read nor write a note. Whenever Ive tried
to learn it, I cant. Yet she insists, Music is my
ministry. And her Schola Ministries tries through CDs, tapes and
performances to spread the Word of prayer and music.
Haunted by Grandma Kate
The nun credits two influences for the route her life has taken.
The first: Grandma Catherine Noone -- called Kate -- a singer and violinist who
was said to be able to play any instrument she set her hand to. Kate died
young, when Deignans mother was 2. Shes the ghost haunting
our family, her granddaughter said.
The second: her novice mistress, Sr. Elizabeth Scully of
Hawthorne, N.J., who used to lock us in a room and say: Sisters,
come out when youre written a play.
But wonder has also informed her music. My ministry is the
ministry of the Word, Deignan said, adding that her ministry is always in
service to the scriptures, whether as teacher, composer, musician or liturgist.
When Deignan reads a biblical or theological text, she hears the words as if
they were song lyrics. If I want to hold a text, I sing it. Thats
how I breathe.
Lyrics arrive in a rush of aspiration. Its as if
Im in front of a page of beautiful words and I just hear them, she
said.
All of these songs have arisen out of my prayer. These texts
are my prayer. Theyre what my heart rushes to, she said.
For someone who loves to hear her Irish family tell stories and
display their devilish wit, Deignan is convinced that the heart
expresses its own richness and color, in whispers and cries, music and poetry.
Thats why every Irish child memorizes, learns by heart.
Currently on sabbatical, Deignan hoped to use her break to compose
and record a new CD. But my muse has been very quiet, she said.
The Zen meditator in her -- her mentors are Fr. Thomas Merton and
Vietnamese Buddhist Thich Nhat Hanh -- is learning to just be with the
breath. For Deignan, breathing is the primordial sacrament.
Its the liturgy of every moment, experiencing the indwelling of the Holy
Spirit and giving it back.
She likes to imagine what the Christian life would be if we
were simply fostering breathing this divine life ... if between the breath and
the heartbeat, we would feel the vibration of God.
Wed realize our acute alienation, how outside of
ourselves we are. We have no sense of our own nature as being the body in which
God is breathing, she said.
Can music and liturgy bring us to the realization of Gods
life pulsating in us? Yes, when liturgy informs our insights and brings
us to a deep understanding of our unknowing. No, when theres
too much singing and no time for contemplation, she said.
What then is the remedy? Go into silence, Deignan
prescribes. If I were an ordained liturgist, I would gradually invite my
congregation to take the pauses to where they speak to us. I would not throw
another song at them, no matter how fabulous the song.
Or the singer-musician-composer.
National Catholic Reporter, January 22,
1999
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